the debt

i am going to enjoy writing about this. i have been tormented and tortured while keeping it buried deep within my heart (although confided it only with N). now i want it totally out of my system. i don't want to live with it and breed it so that one day it takes the form of a terrifying grudge. it is the feeling of mild hatred, an extreme sense of betrayal, and shock at being victimized by singularly unprofessional human beings on this earth. they may not be the worst but certainly the worst lot with whom my paths crossed. they are three people: A, J and M in the chronological order of their appearance in my life and in an ascending order of the amount of pain they have inflicted on me. i don't think i shall ever be able to forget it. all three of them did the same thing but it hurt more each time. now this might sound trivial to most people but i do not care what others feel. i worked for someone with all my heart and with the clearest conscience but what did i get out of it. only the knowledge that one should never trust anybody. if this is the way trust is rewarded then one day "trust" will die a very sad death. the "tridevs" or rather, let me call them "trideviyan" have embittered and disillusioned me. it is just too painful to forget it and i just hope i find more courage to stand up, regain my dignity after being pushed by such pettiness and meanness around me.

I just hope Goodness gives me the strength to be extremely successful in life.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Now i feel better.