I want...

1. A healthy baby.
2. To lose weight post-pregnancy.
3. To live in Japan with my family for at least an year.
4. To teach Japanese.

It's that time of the year!!!

It is that time of the year when winter breathes its last breath and dies quietly, making way for the onset of summer. The slow rising of the temperature; school children awaiting holidays more than the final exams; the anticipation of a long break from worrying about exams and results and basically from everything and anything. In short, the feeling of I-can-do-anything-and-everything-and-no-one-will-ask-me-to-go-study-for-exams seeps into the consciousness. Summer is only in its fetal stage but the atmosphere is already fraught with "summer holidays" . I can almost breathe the sweet smell of it. The air tells me, soon there would be desert coolers on. There will be "matkas" with cold water. I would no longer have to switch on the geyser to take bath. Lovely! Cold showers sound awesome! It makes me extremely happy to anticipate summer and all the things associated with it. For me, it is being in my old house in Nagpur, with the cooler on, taking bath with cold water, doing whatever i want to without being scolded and being asked to study. It is more of being able to do anything i want rather than not being able to do certain things. Not that i hate studies but i love it when i can choose to do what i want to do. Summer, for me, is synonymous to a wonderful sense of freedom and independence from continual worry. I just have to be myself, float as a leaf does when blown by wind. I feel as if during this time (during summer), I don't have to prove myself. I may not be doing a great job of my life, being forever questioned by everyone about what I am doing, and the answer to which is always in the negative. But during this time, I feel happy and content with my reality. I am totally fine with everything. It feels as if the exam of my life is over and done with. Its the summer holidays. The sweet emancipation from one's own expectations. I can now proudly announce that i am not doing a job, not earning money, not involved with any intellectual pursuits...but only loving my life!!!

The first caller!

Had the first call inquiring about JLC! I almost hugged her mentally and would have welcomed her with open arms..She sounded intelligent and really interested in studying Jap... but the wrongest thing about the caller was the timing..i wished she had called me when i was not pregnant and expecting my first baby in a few months!!! how i wish i could teach her..! How i love to teach!! However depressing this post might sound, i have an undying, insane optimism that i shall get what i want in my life if not now, someday but i shall have it...so without brooding about what i couldn't get, i will be looking forward to the day when i shall be bestowed with things i passionately want!!! And for now, i shall go to the kitchen and start cooking lunch! Thanks a lot first caller. You made my belief in myself stronger!